night thoughts

Came across this photo few minutes ago (taken by my mother a year ago while visiting me) and realized I feel all like this in this period of time. 

Everything seems so beautiful and perfect on the background as the sunset, but then there is some unknown space like the ocean and you never see the end. And it feels I am really lost somewhere between two boats and should figure out which one will take me to that beautiful horizon and show me the wonderful world and made me discover myself more and more. But I am all out of focus - how can I make some decision if I can't even see myself? I can differ some parts of me, sometimes even see my face, but it's not the complete image.

Time - become my best friend and give me the courage to see the real me and step forward to my boat. 

Emma

March 11 night thoughts, 2011.

1.47 AM

very strange coincidences - destiny!

Some five years ago when I was working in one IT company as QA-engineer I was dreaming of leaving on some lost island, seeing those exotic countries in Africa. That time it seemed so unreal - it was just a dream. 

Today I found my archive CD-s from that time. In one of them I found a folder named My Pictures, all the staff I saved that time (I was just getting into photography and got so much inspirational folders). So after a while surfing in those folders and remembering all the feelings I had that time I came across a folder named Africa! in it I found several folders with the names of African countries. Each folder contained some amount of photos from those countries. And you know what I found? Mauritius! this is not all, it would be uninteresting just finding a folder with a name of country you are living in. You know there are looooots of hotels in Mauritius, but in this folder I got the photo of the one I did my first wedding shoot in Mauritius! La Plantation..

would I even imagine that time I would be here?..and after some 5-6yrs later opening completely exotic folder for that time I would find the place I felt in love with so long ago.. life is strange - thats why I love it! with lot's of surprises and coincidences (which is actually destiny for me).

Yes, now I strongly believe this is not a coincidences I appeared here - I was meant to be here! 

PS: providing the photos I found in that folder :) 

that La Plantation Hotel, where I did the wedding shoot ( for photos click here )

the same Pamplemousses (Grapefruit from french translation)

Pamplemousses Gardens, when I first got here I told "this is heaven garden!"

the famous photo of the island!

want to figure out which hotel is this..hmm..any suggestions?

re-feeling

I'm too lazy to get to night procedures before sleeping.. lazy to take off my contact lenses and makeup (well if I was out that day).. so that laziness brings me to "late sleeping" issue. Well I don't mind as long as I don't have to wake up early in the morning. But anyway I am just being honest to me. I'm feeling sleepy as from 11 evening but watched a movie and it finished some 40 mins ago and I'm still not in the bed. 

I went to my old pics and came across one painting I did couple of years ago and posted to my fb some album. Under the album I also got some description/explanation to some people what does it mean.

The reason I started writing this post (as usual with long introduction which may annoy some ppl:) is that after watching the painting smt inside me told "Emma, you are sort of again in this state".

So here is the painting and the description I provided recently, I want to keep this in my blog. Somehow I feel the blog as my diary and going back to my old posts makes me remember the way I was/am and which direction I am being changed..but still the same somewhere there inside..

Good night Mauritius, good night world.

1. Q. eating yourself?

A. exactly!

2. Q. euh...please xplain...i can see a women in a sort of water, she seem to have legs like spiderand fishes etc.

A. nothing to explain, it's the way I felt. it's more about being in some state (let's say on water) and running on it/in it. from one unknown state to other, but still staying there. it's like when u try to scream in your dream but no voice comes out.. complicated.

PS: some mathematics :)

      Q=question

      A=answer

depression

this is a day of depression. everything seems incomplete.

I woke up early at 10am (taking into account what time I usually wake up). 

I didn't felt my body, it seemed like I don't have any energy in me and that in reality I don't really control my body. My body was a stranger for me. I walked a bit, stayed awake for some one hour walking  around , then.. guess what happened? went lied on the sofa and again felt asleep! 

1-1.5 hrs of additional sleep, I thought after that I would wake up with some energy but ended up with more under-controlled body. 

I don't feel my legs.. 

maybe I don't feel the ground.. 

I wish I felt it..

I don't want to see this upset eyes in front of me the whole day. 

Mirror! - I liked you so much yesterday! I hate you today!

no, this is not me today. It's me couple of weeks ago. I don't want to be photographed today.

about happiness

maybe this is when u get a question "how are you ? " and instantly and honestly answer "I'm great!".. and everyone around feels you are shining!

this happens to me recent couple of months.. I'm happy! I found my dreamroad!

Me and my treasure light of the island

Recently I somehow feel very complete and in harmony with my inner personality. I felt in love with this island lost on the map..and I found my treasure light here..

I feel I have to express my self more and more now..need to share, feel and feel alive! 

I got some paper and painting colors but didn't have any brushes..it didn't stopped my will to paint today. I took the colors, the paper and 2 cups of water to my terrace, which overlooks this beautiful Mauritian cemetery and starting painting. I didn't know what I am painting. First I made the paper whet and afte was just deeping my fingers into the colors and touching the paper. After a while I realized I am painting my current state. 

The way I feel..complicated but full of bright light from everywhere..that white dots, the most pure light ever.. colorful, full of life..I know that big complicated thing is always a part of me, but I started loving it. That makes me be in peace with it. Now it's manageable. Manageable when I am one with myself. 

I am happy to find you light - now I know who I am.

News

1. I am doing big Mauritian fairies Series and finally started my photo blog, now you can follow my photolines here http://thiternik-photo.blogspot.com/. Will keep the page updated - new shoots coming very soon.

2. redesigned current blog to make it lighter and more user friendly

see the rest at photo-blog

MUR-DXB-EVN. Arajin ory. Mi qich erevan chanaparhordutyunic u aeroportneric (part 1)

chem hishum verjin angam erb em grel. bayc chei el uzum inc tipel grel. verji 1 shabaty anyndhat mtacum em vor piti grem, manavand vorosh mardkanc blogery kardaluc heto mi tesak vogevorveci.

karcum em shat xary post klini, nuynisk migyce Yerevanaxary. erevi mi hat cucak grem u porcem hetev ed cucakin mi qich, chnayac im mot ed mi qich lav chi stacvum, es sirum em amen inch irar xarnel Ay hima el skseci xarnel. Orinak vor inch vor ban em sarqum/txum eli inch vor ban xarnum em - vor anrecept sarqem. Lav, konkretanam u porcem parberutyunnerov grel, vor kardal lini, chnayac iski chgitem qani mard kkarda. STop, ed masin petq chi mtacel. uremn sksum em:

• 1. mi qich erevan chanaparhordutyunic u aeroportneric
• 2. inc zgacoxutyunner het galuc depi kxzi (sub patmutyunnerov)
• estex 2 ket el kain, bayc grelu yntacqum haskaca vorahavor erkar klini 

1. Mi qich erevan chanaparhordutyunic u aeroportneric:

inchpes mecamasnutyuny giten Hoktemberi 25in chanaparhordutyun katareci Yerevan, inchpes ev planavorvum er. Bayc voch voq ed masin chgiter Erevanum (EVN), bacarutyamb Nonai i Arti, voronq ev piti dimavorein. isky qurs chgiter, lav, tpavorutyunneri masin qich nerqevum. 

Piti asem vor es angam shaaaat hangist em chanaparhordel. Mauritius-Dubai shat lav hasa u aeroporti 6-7 jamn el chzgaci vonc ancan. Ancac tari arajin angam ei menakov trnum inqnqtirov u shat anhangist ei procesic, inqs inc hamozel ei vor amen inch lava, vor panikai chmatnvem. Ereevi es inqs inc inch vor ban nershnchelu gitak em :D Arseny khastati! Duty-Freeov arancnapes chtarveci vor finansneris tirapetem. es kasei hacheli jamanak anckacreci aeroportum.

Miak djvar bany eli vesh-meshok er, vory irakanum laptops u Cameras er, vory hatuk tanum ei EVN Gayushin nkarelu (o! es mek mek online patverner em stanum..hachax liner edpes :)) bayc ed harcy lucvec duty-freei anivnerov zambyuxov (inch vor tarorinak hayeren stacvec / neroxutyun). Ekav Gater-i mot havaqvelu pahy u estex es hayeren naxadasutyunner skseci lsel.. bayc meka en efekty cher, inch kar Egiptosic EVN het galu jamanak :) es erevi shat "aranc"(© Sofulyok) hayrenaser mard em. Heto mi qani ankap artahaytutyunner.. de parza.. vorosh ankap hay txaneri koxmmic.. erevi guynics xarnvel ein irar, inch vor fosforneri masin ein xosum. Bayc de es shat lav IGNOR kochak unem :)

Trneluc araj hin ashxatakicnerics mekin tesa yntaniqi het, parzvec Dubai hangstic heto veradarnum ein Yerevan, de parza nuyn chvertov.

Amboxj chanaparhin chei hognel, chei qnel. Mau-ic durs ei ekel erekoyan 9i koxmery, inqnatirs trav karcem 11in, vayrejq ei katarum aravotyan 6.30 Dubaium. 6-7 jam spasum heto EVN evs 3 jam trichq. Amboxj yntacqum quns charav, nuynisk gishery Mau-Dubai trneluch chqneci. Ekav evn ijnelu jamanak, 10 rope er mnacel u hamarya mera nenc hognacutyun zgaci, achqers irar kpan! mi dzev inc durs bereci u 2rd shunch bacvec :) Tadan! karevor pah! hesa  ktesnem ynkerneris! :)))))) durs ekanq Zvartnocic u voch mi tarorinak ban chzgaci, vonc vor tex chei el gnacel, kam 1 shabatov ei gnacel. hech inch vor otar ban chzgaci. Chnayac.. mi ban kar vor shat kontrasti uner. Amen inch shat moxraguyn er - aysinqn shenqery. SOvorel em gunavor shenqerin u inc dur a galis xary guynery, kuzei erevann el gunavorver, voch te menak ed ELITAR shenqern u xanutnery bacein. mardik aveli urax klinein.

Mejberum: Dubai gisherov eeeeenqan sirun er! shat ei tpavorvel! inqnqtiri patuhanic ei nayum gisherov, vonc vor voske margaritneric hyusac qaxaq liner. Bolor luysery ashxatum ei u iraric nuyn heravorutyan vra ein kangnac, bolory nuyn guyni.. shat sirun er - apsos tenc el aeroportic chkaroxaca durs gam. Husov em myus angam Arseni het kchampordem u Dubaiy erkusov explore kanenq :)

hasanq shenqi mot, batcraca astichannerov u Narukis tesa (axpors 2.5 tarekan txan), horexbors txai grkin. Chutiks inc cher moracel! enqan uraxaca - dranic vaxenum ei! inc tesav u vraz girks trav mec jpitov! erkusov sharjvecinq depi tan dury.. Cungi-Cungi.. papan bacec dury! u es haskaca, vor ed surprizy hastat arjer anel! gone Papai achqeri u jpiti hamar! shat ei karotel, iskakan surpriz stacvec..eli karoteci papais. Maman, qurs u axpers der tany chein, Nanen (axpors kiny) shat uraxacav, asec "eee, ba menq patrastvum einq qez dimavoreinq Noyembei 10in", asel ei ed tvin em galu..heto maman ekav, tesav inc u haziv arcunqnery pahec, aseci lacel macel chka. Eriky (axpers) ekav u shshmec, shaaaat uraxacav. U haskaca vor surprizy iroq stacvum a. Verjy Maruky ekav Sofukis het! Sofos inc tesav shshmec- mi qani rope shokic durs cher galis vor es ekel em:) Amen inch stacvec enpes - inchpes uzum ei. Shat jerm er, karotel ei tenc liqy taq mardkanc. es kasei uxaki meronc.

Che, meka zgum em vor shaaaat a erkarum posty. aveli lav a es meky verjacnem u mnacac temanery arancin posterum grem. Arancin erevanyan erekoneri masin, zgacoxutyunneri, nkarneri~~ che hastat edpes em anum.

Husov em der kveradarnas sharunakutyuny kardalu :) xosq em talis nkarner dnel!

Having dinner alone: pan cooked chicken in tamarind-soy sauce.

Today is Monday, as always Arsen is playing chess on the Monday evenings. So I decided to have normal dinner instead of waiting 22-23.00 and eat some fast made sandwich or something like that. Some 2 weeks ago I bought tamarind paste from our supermarket, it was toooo cheap, just 10 Rs, that's about 100-120 drams. I read about this fruit - so decided to try it today. Me and Arsen call such kind of food Chinese. Actually I don't know how Chinese is this, but the taste is really something! So here we go ;)

 

so this is my dinner for today, Nona and Mike would like this :) if you want to see the process, just click to view more

 

 

 

 

 

cooking-mooking

Today I started posting my own cooking recipes in one of Russian great cooking forums. The original website url is http://www.gotovim-doma.ru . I have learn so much from this website and always can find the answers to my questions.

I should say that I am not a fan of cooking with exact recipes, I always change something :) Maybe I want everything to be mine. So today I just realized that now I can cook almost everything. When I came to Mauritius I didn't know how to cook at all.. or maybe just a bit. Well - we were never hungry :D

So maybe I should put this on my list of what I have learn during this year:) Well, if you know Russian you can follow up my recipes by clicking here , if not- you can check up the pics I have to take during cooking. Hope this post is not that much boring :D

Just putting some 2 pics what I made today. Mini fast pizzas on old bread:D and Choco-Coco tart:

Arsen vs Roy

Arsen is going to play chess with/against Roy tomorrow - September 14.
Roy is the strongest chess player of Mauritius. But Arsen is also a strong player!
So I believe everything will be ok - he needs to play very attentive.

Just wanted to wish good luck to my love :) I know - you can do that! Don't hurry up - you have time

Current template problems, please Help!

I just finished customizing this template with my blog. I like it.
But I have a problem. Do you see those Read More buttons? I had problems with their functionality. By default it's said that I should include do this steps:

How to hide article’s content on the main page
As this template got ‘Read More’ function, you probably want to hide some text from being displayed on the main page. In fact, you just need some extremely easy step to achieve this. Simply copy the highlighted code below, then access into ‘Settings’ and under the ‘Formatting’ tab, paste the code into the ‘Post Template’.

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On the next time you write an article, you just need to add this line of code to hide the text. For example,
< span class = ” fullpost ” > Here are the texts you want to hide < / span >

so I did, but nothing happened. I have all the text I write in the post visible on home page.
Can someone help me with this?

mixed post: the Chess Competition, Jason's party, the Monopoly!

An english post. Not so much text - many photos instead.

The Chess Competition:
We were waiting for September 5. The day of Chess competition between 2 Mauritian clubs. Arsen plays in one of them. That day I went with him to the competition. As alway I was the only supporter :) and the only female. I wanted to take some photos from the match. Here are some of them. Arsen is not here in pics- the original photos are in RAW format, I need to transfer them to jpeg. Maybe later I'll add some.

this man is a doctor. He was very friendly person - it was a pleasure to talk to him. He is the only Mauritian I know who speaks Russian and has been to Armenia.

This is Roy, the strongest chess player of Mauritius.

and this is me. Just one shot during the match.

Jason's Party:
During the chess match I am the secretary of Arsen and I need to answer the calls instead of him. So I got a call from Jason, a guy from Australia who was working with Arsen. He was going to leave Mauritius after couple of days. The first association that comes to my mind about Jason is the work f*ck and a happy face :) he was a really nice person! Well he told they are going to have a dinner at Twin's Garden, a restaurant just behind our complex. Our chess team won the competition - that was good. Finally we were at our town, Flic en Flac, we met Hayk (one of armenian guys) and went to Twin's. Wow, we were not alone! so many guys - and again I am the only female. we had some dinner and bear - actually it was not that tasty, anyway. After some time the show begun. Mauritian national dances - Sega. The meal was not perfect - but the show was something! and the guys starring on dancing girls...mmm.... after the show they invited us to try dancing, that was funny. No more talk. see the photos.

forgot to say we had a private dance with my husband :)

and after that he found some other girl :D

and the others too :P

the sega show, the girl on the right was something! reminded me of Jessica Alba.

do you see the dancing guy? that is Justin, pixel artist - it was to funny watching his Sega dance!

Our dances. I should go and learn right Sega dance at some dance school.

The final dinner with Jason:
As I mentioned Jason had to go after couple of days, so we invited him to have a dinner with us. It has become a tradition in our small family. Everyone who is going to leave the country should have dinner, mostly homemade pizza and play Monopoly. That day I decided to make something else than only pizza. So I had to make a dough. I baked Adjarakan Khachapuri, it was really good - even I liked it. It's some kind of open envelop doughwith white cheese and eggs baked in the oven. Well we also had pizza and wine. Everyone was full..brr.. I did'n take any photos that day, next time I'll do that.

..and the Monopoly!
as I told it has become a tradition to play Monopoly before saying Goodbye. I should say that started playing this game just some 3 months ago and did it only some 5 times. At the beginning my position was awfull - I thought I'm going loose everything..but.. as always I won with lot's of money! Two male and on female, and again I won it! the same was with Mike (a Japanese guy who was working as a designer with Arsen).

I wish I could be so lucky with my design contest.. I'll tell you about my unluckiness in future posts.
well, I guess his is all. The only thing to mention that the shots from Jason's party were made bay Diganta.

Thanks for reading :)

gtnvac eraz, korac gisherain qun

cereknery chem dimanum - shat hetaqrqir erazner em tesnum, dra hamar el gishernery chem qnum. cereky jamy 14-i mot amenahetaqrqirnern en linum. grete misht mut a. hima aravotva 5.23, gam gisherva. es korcrel em im gisherain quny.

inc lriv es "mkan" pes em zgum. men menak datark kxzum, dzen dzun chka u misht mut. chnyacac grete amen or hetevum em tapancik apakuc drneris hetevic sevy vonc a spitak darnum. hervic.

some nice August day

Note: I decided to write some english posts for my english speaking frends (kitz, it's also about you:). It will also help me to have an upgrade with my english. Arsen - don't be so strict with my language! Sorry for mistakes. Thanks:)

I was lying in my bed and planning my upcoming day. I had to wake up early, then go to the beach to take some photos, do some shopping in the supermarket and after have a sweem in our pool if the day is warm enaugh and sunny. For that I had to wake up early.. hmm.. early for me.. at least at 12 noon :( weel if you go to sleep 4 at the morning and finally fall in sleep at about 6.. then wake up at 7.30 and try to awake Arsen for half an hour.. 2 or 3 is ok to get out of bed.. I know, it's strange - but my routine has changed to 180 degrees.
I asked Arsen to call me at 12 and wake me up.. he did. but I slept all the day as always.. not good for me.
Well, I wak up at about 14.30.. stayed in bed for some hal an hour more and finally went to bathroom.

After checked my email and other online "things". Anna was online, the wife of Tigran who are also living here. She is also pragnent like the other Anna, Hike-s wife. I told her I want to go to beach and take some photos and asked her to join me. She also wanted to walk a bit, the weather was great - anyway I knew I had no time for sweeming. So we met after some hal an hour and decided to walk as far as we can. It was nice. The sun was warm but not hot - the right weather for long walks. We met some people having suntan in the beach.. strange.. it's winter now :) but they were really tanned :D After some 10 minute we got to a point where we have never been before and decided to continue the wal. I wanted to take photos of some fishermans with thair boats.. but they were not there. I think I can get them in the mornings.. when I am watching my interesting dreams. (Arsen laughs when I say that I am watching my dreams, but it's true). After some 5 minutes more we saw such a beautiful scene I can't describe with my terrible english :) I am going to put some images with titles just after I write everything:) No, I'll do that right now:)  

Please view them enlarged :)

this is the end point

this is the new view we found - rocks !

a man, who was sitting in the garden just in front of the ocean

the fisherman, I am going to talk to him just now :)

Elias - the fisherman from the top photo, I saw him from far then went to talk to him and take some close portraits. I took only my telephoto lens - it's not good for working in short distances. I wish I had my 50mm fix with me today:)

this kids were sitting on the rocks and laughing (they were some 6-7). After they came to fisherman's place and started posing :D But I like this one. It seems they are bordered with the rocks.

After I wished Elias a good day, he was really a very nice and easy going person. He couldn't catch any fish today - he told he doesn't come to that place often. As I understood it's not a perfect place for fishing. He said he goes to some place (don't remember the name, but there was something Black :) almost everyday. Hope he will have luck next time. Then we walked back to the main road - went to supermarket with Anna and came back at about 18.10. Decided to have a swim tomorrow if the weather is nice like today :)

During the day I was taking some shots of Anna. She did the same. So here they are for the end:

smileeee:)

another smile:)

taking some scenes while I am talking with Elias

Anna, look at meee:) And click!

And here are the shots from Anna's camera catching me:)

shooting the kid, if you enlarge - you'll see them :)

 

talking to Elias

shooting the new view with Lara Croft hairstyle :D

catching the sun

the queen of rocks :D

PS: Overall it was a nice day with "touchable" results. Hope you like the pictures and the post. Comments are strongly welcome!