very strange coincidences - destiny!

Some five years ago when I was working in one IT company as QA-engineer I was dreaming of leaving on some lost island, seeing those exotic countries in Africa. That time it seemed so unreal - it was just a dream. 

Today I found my archive CD-s from that time. In one of them I found a folder named My Pictures, all the staff I saved that time (I was just getting into photography and got so much inspirational folders). So after a while surfing in those folders and remembering all the feelings I had that time I came across a folder named Africa! in it I found several folders with the names of African countries. Each folder contained some amount of photos from those countries. And you know what I found? Mauritius! this is not all, it would be uninteresting just finding a folder with a name of country you are living in. You know there are looooots of hotels in Mauritius, but in this folder I got the photo of the one I did my first wedding shoot in Mauritius! La Plantation..

would I even imagine that time I would be here?..and after some 5-6yrs later opening completely exotic folder for that time I would find the place I felt in love with so long ago.. life is strange - thats why I love it! with lot's of surprises and coincidences (which is actually destiny for me).

Yes, now I strongly believe this is not a coincidences I appeared here - I was meant to be here! 

PS: providing the photos I found in that folder :) 

that La Plantation Hotel, where I did the wedding shoot ( for photos click here )

the same Pamplemousses (Grapefruit from french translation)

Pamplemousses Gardens, when I first got here I told "this is heaven garden!"

the famous photo of the island!

want to figure out which hotel is this..hmm..any suggestions?

re-feeling

I'm too lazy to get to night procedures before sleeping.. lazy to take off my contact lenses and makeup (well if I was out that day).. so that laziness brings me to "late sleeping" issue. Well I don't mind as long as I don't have to wake up early in the morning. But anyway I am just being honest to me. I'm feeling sleepy as from 11 evening but watched a movie and it finished some 40 mins ago and I'm still not in the bed. 

I went to my old pics and came across one painting I did couple of years ago and posted to my fb some album. Under the album I also got some description/explanation to some people what does it mean.

The reason I started writing this post (as usual with long introduction which may annoy some ppl:) is that after watching the painting smt inside me told "Emma, you are sort of again in this state".

So here is the painting and the description I provided recently, I want to keep this in my blog. Somehow I feel the blog as my diary and going back to my old posts makes me remember the way I was/am and which direction I am being changed..but still the same somewhere there inside..

Good night Mauritius, good night world.

1. Q. eating yourself?

A. exactly!

2. Q. euh...please xplain...i can see a women in a sort of water, she seem to have legs like spiderand fishes etc.

A. nothing to explain, it's the way I felt. it's more about being in some state (let's say on water) and running on it/in it. from one unknown state to other, but still staying there. it's like when u try to scream in your dream but no voice comes out.. complicated.

PS: some mathematics :)

      Q=question

      A=answer

depression

this is a day of depression. everything seems incomplete.

I woke up early at 10am (taking into account what time I usually wake up). 

I didn't felt my body, it seemed like I don't have any energy in me and that in reality I don't really control my body. My body was a stranger for me. I walked a bit, stayed awake for some one hour walking  around , then.. guess what happened? went lied on the sofa and again felt asleep! 

1-1.5 hrs of additional sleep, I thought after that I would wake up with some energy but ended up with more under-controlled body. 

I don't feel my legs.. 

maybe I don't feel the ground.. 

I wish I felt it..

I don't want to see this upset eyes in front of me the whole day. 

Mirror! - I liked you so much yesterday! I hate you today!

no, this is not me today. It's me couple of weeks ago. I don't want to be photographed today.

about happiness

maybe this is when u get a question "how are you ? " and instantly and honestly answer "I'm great!".. and everyone around feels you are shining!

this happens to me recent couple of months.. I'm happy! I found my dreamroad!

Me and my treasure light of the island

Recently I somehow feel very complete and in harmony with my inner personality. I felt in love with this island lost on the map..and I found my treasure light here..

I feel I have to express my self more and more now..need to share, feel and feel alive! 

I got some paper and painting colors but didn't have any brushes..it didn't stopped my will to paint today. I took the colors, the paper and 2 cups of water to my terrace, which overlooks this beautiful Mauritian cemetery and starting painting. I didn't know what I am painting. First I made the paper whet and afte was just deeping my fingers into the colors and touching the paper. After a while I realized I am painting my current state. 

The way I feel..complicated but full of bright light from everywhere..that white dots, the most pure light ever.. colorful, full of life..I know that big complicated thing is always a part of me, but I started loving it. That makes me be in peace with it. Now it's manageable. Manageable when I am one with myself. 

I am happy to find you light - now I know who I am.

News

1. I am doing big Mauritian fairies Series and finally started my photo blog, now you can follow my photolines here http://thiternik-photo.blogspot.com/. Will keep the page updated - new shoots coming very soon.

2. redesigned current blog to make it lighter and more user friendly

see the rest at photo-blog